Thursday, May 13, 2010

A Good Mood

I am in a good mood today! Ya know why??
Tonight is the season finale of...

Its more than a good mood though.
Its planning my day leading up to this big event.
It will start with my morning green tea(those of you who know me, know that I switch back and forth between green tea and coffee in the mornings but I have to have one or the other)
Right now its particularly a green tea season!
Okay so then I head to work(which if I could choose, would not be part of the plan
but Im a money- maker so away I go for 8 hours)

After work is when the excitement starts to build...
I will hurry home, change into my running clothes and head for the trail for a high paced--Jamming to my new iTunes songs--"I need water now"--
my knees are going to collapse on me---kind of run.
Which I somehow find exhilarting!
(Note: This is not me)

After I consume large amounts of water, I will start prepping for supper!
A favorite meal is a must for this kind of night, but that would be tacos for us and we already had "Taco Tuesday". So I will have to reach into my recipe noggin and come up with something else......
Aha! Enchiladas!
Which I've never made before and might not be a good night to test a recipe, but I will try anyways. I am going to trust a dear blogger acquaintance of mine and try
 The Busy Budgeting Mama recipe for Enchiladas here.
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When I'm done making the dish, I will light a yummy smelling candle while my husband and I will sit at our little 2-top pub table and enjoy our lavish Mexican meal and I hear him rant and rave about how he doesnt understand the concept of eating out and the money spent when I make such fantastic meals at home! hehehe.
I will then nod and smile as I remove myself from the table and scadadle back into the kitchen to tidy up. 
I will pour me a glass of red wine, grab my phone(because me, my mom, and sister tend to chat throughout the evening discussing the shows) and prop down on the couch as I soak in the thrilling, goodness of ....
Private Practice.


Wednesday, May 12, 2010


1) lacking conviction or enthusiasm,indifferent 2) warm
I have to admit, this has been me in the past. Although, I tried my best to find a different word to describe it. This pretty much sums it up. Lukewarm.

God says in Revelations 3: 15-17 "I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth. You say, 'I am rich; I have acquired wealth and do not need a thing.' But you do not realize that you are wretched, pitiful, poor, blind and naked."

Spit you out!!!??? (*gulp*) This is serious! How could I have been living such a life that God would want to do this? 
One of the best books Ive ever read is Crazy Love by Francis Chan.
In this book, he describes this incredible crazy love that God has for us and that we should have for him.  The love that constantly pursues His heart and His time. He talkes about lukewarm christians and gives examples of how lukewarm can creep into different parts of your life. Chan speaks of the love of God and how we are to let God do the work in us and make the changes in our heart. We cant assume we are living on "good" soil. We cant believe the lies that good deeds is what the Lord wants of us.  A person’s faith is shown through his actions. Chan says, “The world needs Christians who don’t tolerate the complacency of their own lives.”
I have lived so many years being lukewarm in certain areas of my life. It took me meeting my husband to fully see the depth of Gods grace.  It took seeing my husbands actions and example in my life, his reverence, his accountability, and us talking about the foundation we want our marriage built on. I get it now. And its good. God is good. How could I have missed it all these years?  Im still a work in progress. Im still cleaning house.
And I still pray that God continues to reveal the ugly places in my heart and fills them with his love. But its good.

"Teach me to be humble
Call me from the grave
Show me how to walk
with you upon the waves
Breathe into my spirit
Breathe into my veins
Until only love remains"
Only Love Remains, JJ Heller