a little bit stronger

"The faithful love of the Lord never ends!

His mercies never cease.

Great is his faithfulness;
his mercies are new each morning.
I say to myself, “The Lord is my portion;
therefore, I will hope in him!” 
Lamintations 3:22-24

He will always be...

My son.
I never knew I could love something
so much so quickly in just 4 months.
My heart was full, my belly was pooched.
I was already a mom.
I nurtured him and protected him so carefully.
My body was not my own anymore, and I embraced that.
I felt he was safe in my womb.
And I felt safe from the horrid first few months hoping and praying
that this child is the child God has called  me to carry full term.

But i was wrong.

He fit in the palm of my husband's hand.
So tiny and frail, yet a fighter so strong.
Helpless I felt knowing he would soon leave me.
But trusting this was his plan all along.
Pain has consumed me like I've never felt before.
Guilt lies dormant in the pit of my stomach for not being able to do anything.
Tears continue to fall even when I think I might be strong enough to get up and go on.
Im my eyes, God took him way too early from me.
But I know in His, it was just in time for him.
And even though emptiness lingers inside me
its grace that covers me.
This will always be apart of me
and probably always bring me to tears.
Im okay with that, He was more than worth it.
He will always be my son.

A Prune..that's it!?

Baby's now the size of a prune!

This is the beginning of the so-called fetal period, a time when the tissues and organs in his body rapidly grow and mature.

He/She's swallowing fluid and kicking up a storm. Vital organs — including his kidneys, intestines, brain, and liver are in place and starting to function, though they'll continue to develop throughout my pregnancy.

Before I got pregnant, they say my uterus was the size of a small pear. By this week, it's as big as a grapefruit!

Since week 7, I have been nauseous all day long.  I am over the whole eating often thing! Mainly, because I dont want anything. Eating went from something I tried to be healthy with to eating strictly for the baby...and a chocolate milkshake every once in a while at 10:30am.

Bab(ies)

This long Easter weekend was filled with best friends, baby shower, babies, and family! I went down to Florida to throw my best friend her first baby shower for sweet little, Ella Gray. The hubs werent around so we got to hang like old times with shopping, pedicures, movies, and food! We got together with our childhood friend and her newborn Chase Jameson who is a handsome fellow. And caught a glimpse of the sun in the short time we could stand the heat.  But my favorite part of the time spent with Erin was being able to share my new news of 8 weeks....

We always wanted to be pregnant together and I made it in the nick of time! She is about to pop and I am about to puke! It was a laughable time thats for sure being able to share in eachothers pregancies. There were many breaks of eating, catching breath, sprite pit stops, and late night snacking.
...I will never forget that time with her.

Easter was spent with the Fam which consists of 6 little ones on the hunt for eggs! I made sure this trip I was able to have some Q.T. with each sibling, in-law, neice, nephew, and of course the rents! It was a busy weekend but I left filled with many sweet memories.

What do you do

When life hands you lemons?

Well you make lemonade, of course!

I dont know why things happen the way they do sometimes.

But I do know that the Lord says, "your ways are not my ways."

I trust that in whatever circumstances that me - you - or someone you know is in

His ways and His circumstances are always better.

There always for His glory.

And your best...

...eventually.

So drink up!

Music in the South

On our date night Friday
we stopped by the
Acoustic Cafe
to hear some original music of the South.....Blues.

Its hard coming from Austin,TX to find some decent music to listen to considering there is music on every block in every restuarant. But Smiley's Acoustic Cafe helped us feel right back in Austin.

The funny, random part of the evening was that a photographer was sitting near us with his camera out snapping photos of people. He asked if he could take a picture of Jason and I.
.....here are the results.

One word

...amazing!

This was a picture taken from the ATL concert on Monday.

It was absolutely amazing to see the band of Hillsong UNITED being used as a tool to get thousands to lay down everything and freely worship our God and Creator.

I was in complete awe. Awe of what God can do in those moments. And the act of humiliation and surrender I saw as I looked across the arena. Every hand raised and expressions of needing more of what God was doing in their hearts. The concert wasn't just a concert. It became about glorigying God and worshiping with fellow believers.

It was liberating.

We were encouraged.

We felt hopeful.

And left with joy.

What a good new place to be.