At Peace

Looking out this morning

I realize

Im at peace

I see God through all this

And Im okay

"The Lord turn his face toward you and give you peace." Number 6:26

making new memories

Boathouse - Isle of Palm

Hello 30's

Today I am taking a leap.

A leap into my thrities.

With no reservation,
I am ready to embrace
what God has for me in this
next decade.

I am stronger.

Wiser.

Humbled.

In love.

Content.

Ready.

So...hello 30's!

a little bit stronger

"The faithful love of the Lord never ends!

His mercies never cease.

Great is his faithfulness;
his mercies are new each morning.
I say to myself, “The Lord is my portion;
therefore, I will hope in him!” 
Lamintations 3:22-24

He will always be...

My son.
I never knew I could love something
so much so quickly in just 4 months.
My heart was full, my belly was pooched.
I was already a mom.
I nurtured him and protected him so carefully.
My body was not my own anymore, and I embraced that.
I felt he was safe in my womb.
And I felt safe from the horrid first few months hoping and praying
that this child is the child God has called  me to carry full term.

But i was wrong.

He fit in the palm of my husband's hand.
So tiny and frail, yet a fighter so strong.
Helpless I felt knowing he would soon leave me.
But trusting this was his plan all along.
Pain has consumed me like I've never felt before.
Guilt lies dormant in the pit of my stomach for not being able to do anything.
Tears continue to fall even when I think I might be strong enough to get up and go on.
Im my eyes, God took him way too early from me.
But I know in His, it was just in time for him.
And even though emptiness lingers inside me
its grace that covers me.
This will always be apart of me
and probably always bring me to tears.
Im okay with that, He was more than worth it.
He will always be my son.

A Prune..that's it!?

Baby's now the size of a prune!

This is the beginning of the so-called fetal period, a time when the tissues and organs in his body rapidly grow and mature.

He/She's swallowing fluid and kicking up a storm. Vital organs — including his kidneys, intestines, brain, and liver are in place and starting to function, though they'll continue to develop throughout my pregnancy.

Before I got pregnant, they say my uterus was the size of a small pear. By this week, it's as big as a grapefruit!

Since week 7, I have been nauseous all day long.  I am over the whole eating often thing! Mainly, because I dont want anything. Eating went from something I tried to be healthy with to eating strictly for the baby...and a chocolate milkshake every once in a while at 10:30am.

Bab(ies)

This long Easter weekend was filled with best friends, baby shower, babies, and family! I went down to Florida to throw my best friend her first baby shower for sweet little, Ella Gray. The hubs werent around so we got to hang like old times with shopping, pedicures, movies, and food! We got together with our childhood friend and her newborn Chase Jameson who is a handsome fellow. And caught a glimpse of the sun in the short time we could stand the heat.  But my favorite part of the time spent with Erin was being able to share my new news of 8 weeks....

We always wanted to be pregnant together and I made it in the nick of time! She is about to pop and I am about to puke! It was a laughable time thats for sure being able to share in eachothers pregancies. There were many breaks of eating, catching breath, sprite pit stops, and late night snacking.
...I will never forget that time with her.

Easter was spent with the Fam which consists of 6 little ones on the hunt for eggs! I made sure this trip I was able to have some Q.T. with each sibling, in-law, neice, nephew, and of course the rents! It was a busy weekend but I left filled with many sweet memories.