Reconnecting

So many years have gone by. So many things have happened.  And somehow the distance between us had grown farther then the actual distance between us. 

Is this what happens when you get older?

Friends come....and friends go?

When I look back to my childhood, she's in it. It was so rich.

Filled with fun, laughter, imagination, and freedom. 

The memories still stood so vivid in my mind.

And once I truely thought about it, 

It didnt really matter what caused this or why for that matter.....

.....she would always be my friend.  

As years have gone by and ive grown up alittle...

Ive learned that life is too short for caddy-ness.

Try not to think so much. Time does heal.

And sometimes the distance can be good.

 

Its good to know you again, friend.

1 + 1 = 2

2 people joined

2 worlds,lived in
2 states in
2 years,

which consisted of

2 different houses,

2 different jobs,

2 different insurances,

2 sets of friends,

are now we celebrating
2 years of marriage! 

Jason and I were set up on a blind date by 2 couples.

  

And thats all it took..and we knew.

That we knew, that we knew...from that 1 date it was history!

1 blind date + 1 year later = married

and now here we are...

1 year in Texas + 1 year in Florida = 2 crazy years of marriage!

xoxoxo

Oldie but Goodie

I got in the car this morning and wanted to some good tunes. Not groovin tunes, but some good therapy tunes. So i opened up my cd case and the first cd was Ginny Owens. It was a really old cd, but I took my chances anyways. Alot of the songs I had forgotten or didnt know how I could have listened to in the first place. My fingers almost pressed next, but then this song came on. I know the Lord let me listen for a reason....

Who are you Listening to?

by Ginny Owens

This is your life yet somehow they decide what you’re about

You learn your lines and take your cues, but who are you listening to

You change your clothes and how you speak and place your hope

in what they think. Before you know, there’s no more you,

Who are you listening to, Have you noticed how much ya fear

All those voices you choose to hear, Who are you listening to

Who tells you what to do, Who rules your thoughts at night

And whose rules define your life

Oh, ya know it’s up to you, So who are you listening to

Who are you listening to

This is your life you have no choice, You will rely on someone’s voice

And it’s alright to question who, Who are you listening to

Do the words that you believe, set your soul and spirit free

Who are you listening to, Who tells you what to do

Who rules your thoughts at night, Whose rules define your life

Oh, ya know it’s up to you, So, who are ya listening to

Who are you listening to

There’s a quiet voice whispering in your heart, It’s been there all along,

It believes in you, it will tell the truth, Can’t you hear it call

Who rules your thoughts at night, Whose rules define your life

Oh,ya know it’s up to you, So, who are you listening to

Who are you listening to, Are you listening?????

(to listen..please turn off playlist at the bottom)

Get back up

When sin creeps in and knocks you down...

you get back up.

"They will fight against you but will not overcome you,

for I am with you and will rescue you," declares the LORD." Jeremiah 1:19

It feels good to feel strong. To feel confident that the Lord is refining the  struggle that continues to break you down. 
It feels good. It feels happy.
I feel blessed.

But its at that very moment that Satan thrives on attack.

Keep your head held high, your shoulders lifted.

And when it starts to happen, and you feel your joy start to dwindle...
get back up. Resight this passage and know that
 He his your warrior when satan tries to attack.
"The LORD will march out like a mighty man, like a warrior he will stir up his zeal; with a shout he will raise the battle cry and will triumph over his enemies." Isaiah 42:13

  I am a work in progress. And I know God is still molding me and reteaching me from what I've known for so long. Refining a struggle takes time. I will be changed. I will overcome this.

 

So I encourage you, when satan continues to creep in and steel your joy, your hope, your courage...dont give up the fight!!You will overcome this. Whatever your struggle is. Whatever your fight. Whatever is too heavy for you. Lay it down. Break the chains and let God take on this burden.
God will prevail!

What do I know of Holy

A Good Mood

I am in a good mood today! Ya know why??

Tonight is the season finale of...

Its more than a good mood though.

Its planning my day leading up to this big event.

It will start with my morning green tea(those of you who know me, know that I switch back and forth between green tea and coffee in the mornings but I have to have one or the other)

Right now its particularly a green tea season!

Okay so then I head to work(which if I could choose, would not be part of the plan

but Im a money- maker so away I go for 8 hours)

After work is when the excitement starts to build...

I will hurry home, change into my running clothes and head for the trail for a high paced--Jamming to my new iTunes songs--"I need water now"--

my knees are going to collapse on me---kind of run.

Which I somehow find exhilarting!

(Note: This is not me)

After I consume large amounts of water, I will start prepping for supper!

A favorite meal is a must for this kind of night, but that would be tacos for us and we already had "Taco Tuesday". So I will have to reach into my recipe noggin and come up with something else......

Aha! Enchiladas!

Which I've never made before and might not be a good night to test a recipe, but I will try anyways. I am going to trust a dear blogger acquaintance of mine and try

 The Busy Budgeting Mama recipe for Enchiladas here.

When I'm done making the dish, I will light a yummy smelling candle while my husband and I will sit at our little 2-top pub table and enjoy our lavish Mexican meal and I hear him rant and rave about how he doesnt understand the concept of eating out and the money spent when I make such fantastic meals at home! hehehe.

I will then nod and smile as I remove myself from the table and scadadle back into the kitchen to tidy up. 

I will pour me a glass of red wine, grab my phone(because me, my mom, and sister tend to chat throughout the evening discussing the shows) and prop down on the couch as I soak in the thrilling, goodness of ....

Private Practice.

THE END TO A PERFECT THURSDAY.

Lukewarm?

Lukewarm:

1) lacking conviction or enthusiasm,indifferent 2) warm

I have to admit, this has been me in the past. Although, I tried my best to find a different word to describe it. This pretty much sums it up. Lukewarm.

God says in Revelations 3: 15-17 "I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth. You say, 'I am rich; I have acquired wealth and do not need a thing.' But you do not realize that you are wretched, pitiful, poor, blind and naked."

Spit you out!!!??? (*gulp*) This is serious! How could I have been living such a life that God would want to do this? 

One of the best books Ive ever read is Crazy Love by Francis Chan.

In this book, he describes this incredible crazy love that God has for us and that we should have for him.  The love that constantly pursues His heart and His time. He talkes about lukewarm christians and gives examples of how lukewarm can creep into different parts of your life. Chan speaks of the love of God and how we are to let God do the work in us and make the changes in our heart. We cant assume we are living on "good" soil. We cant believe the lies that good deeds is what the Lord wants of us.  A person’s faith is shown through his actions. Chan says, “The world needs Christians who don’t tolerate the complacency of their own lives.”

 

I have lived so many years being lukewarm in certain areas of my life. It took me meeting my husband to fully see the depth of Gods grace.  It took seeing my husbands actions and example in my life, his reverence, his accountability, and us talking about the foundation we want our marriage built on. I get it now. And its good. God is good. How could I have missed it all these years?  Im still a work in progress. Im still cleaning house.

And I still pray that God continues to reveal the ugly places in my heart and fills them with his love. But its good.

 

"Teach me to be humble

Call me from the grave

Show me how to walk

with you upon the waves

Breathe into my spirit

Breathe into my veins
Until only love remains"

Only Love Remains, JJ Heller